Empty

> It's quite hard to describe what I am feeling right now. They're all mixed together until I don't know what is exactly in my heart, body & mind as well. I think I'm just lost. i don't know what to do. Anymore. Lost. EMPTY.

> I miss my family. Like usual. My Terence. As always. Only Allah could save them, all of my beloved safe and sound. May Allah bless us. I am so sorry, ma, abah, adik-adik & Terence. A lot of sorry. I love you guys, beyond anything in this world.

> All I hope now, just fr a miracle. But, it's clearly sounds stupid enough. I shouldn't believe such thing as Islam didn't taught about a "miracle" if we, ourselves didn't try anything to make it fr real. We want a miracle, we have to do something. There's nothing in this world that can come straight away to your feet as you wish fr it. Wake up YAYA!!!

> I should stop living this way. This kind of live. Just fucked up as hell. I'm the one who choose to be like that. So, I'm the one who have to change it all. No one else. It's my life.