Hey, I want to say something! - Heart's saying...

> Why am I... typing down this kind of... topic? Na na na... *suka hati aku lah kan...* :P

> Nah... bila hati berkata... some of the time... kita sendiri akan deny. Masa yg lain pula... kita akui. Kita nafikan sebab kita TAK BOLEH TERIMA HAKIKAT. And, when it is admitted, it means kita REDHA dan TERIMA. Hal ini demikian kerana *ceh, mcm nak buat essay zaman sekolah je -.- * ... mulut kita bisa saja menipu... menidakkan kebenaran dan ye, menegakkan kebenaran yg sedia ada... Tapi hati... biar macam mana sekalipun mulut kata TAK... hati menangis mengiakannya...

> Soal hati ni... kalau ikutkan... aku malas sangat dah nak fikir... hati tak rupa macam hati dah aku rasa kat dalam tu... Kalau hati tu boleh keluar masuk sesedap dia... Dah lama aku tak ada hati aku rasa. Mau nya dia blah tinggal aku. Na na na...

> Sometimes kan... I feels like... I've been cursed. Been cursed to not having someone special in my life. Been cursed to stay alone... until my last breath... Nah, it's not that I don't believe in Allah... Believe in... fate that only Allah hold it. Hm... maybe it was ALL because of my sins and fault, fr sure... Allah knows the best... :']

> Yaya... kau dah kenapa ni...? Aku teringatkan dia. Dia. Sakit oi. Sakit. Sangat2... Macam tak terucap, tak tergambar sakitnya macam mana... Ya Allah... sumpah tak boleh nak lupa senyuman terakhir tu... "Can we still be friend?" <--- msg last dia yg aku tak reply. No wonder whole day, the day I found out the truth... hati rasa tak tenang. Tak sedap sgt rasa hati. Berkecamuk. Kacau-bilau. Resah. Denyutannya, lari rentak. Bercampur-baur. Aku rasa happy. Dan rasa sedih2 jauh di sudut hati. Aku hilang akal kdg2 bila terfikir... SAMPAINYA HATI sesetgh manusia ni utk menyakitkan hati orang lain. Dia pun ada hati kot. Tak fikir ke kalau benda tu kena balik kat dia? Ya Allah... :'[

> Whenever I feels like I know that I'm going to have 'something' with someone... have something more than the usual thing... more to special one... I'm trying my hell best to take a good care of their heart. I keep stay to be myself. I won't change. It's just that, I care about my words. I think before I talk. Even fr making jokes... Ya Allah... Aku lebih byk dosa dari mereka2 kan...? Sebab tu aku kena macam ni kan... :']

*Entry dah panjang sgt ni... -.- *plopplop*